I've been sabotaging my weight loss all month. I'm not sure what's wrong with me. The food I'm cheating with isn't even good, I just shovel it in my face and regret it afterwards.
I talked to my therapist about it yesterday. I think part of me is afraid to lose the weight. I've been fat for so long, it's just been easier that way.
This morning I resisted the temptation of bad foods. I think I'll just start telling myself that I don't need that. I might want it, but I don't need it. If I don't start today, I'll look back weeks, months from now and wish I'd started today. I'm going to take it one day, one meal, one snack at a time. Be good, eat the things that fit in to my macros and if I slip up, don't throw the rest of the day away, just start again at the next meal/snack. I have control. I need to make the conscious decision to choose better foods.
35 more lbs to my first goal, which is a lot less than the 50 lbs it was just last month. I can do this.