I feel like I've been doing this NaBloPoMo thing for forever, even though I'm pretty sure it hasn't even been a year yet... or maybe it has. I have no idea!
Last month I think was my best showing ever! There were a few days that I skipped, or forgot about, but that's ok.
This month is all about the Love and Sex. The latter of which I know way more about than the former. Love was something I didn't believe in. I still have trouble with the concept. So many people just throw the word around without much thought. The first person I ever said it to and meant it was Hubbs. My parents and other family would tell me they loved me, and I would just brush it off. I'm pretty sure you don't abandon and emotionally abuse the people you "love". Even sometimes now, I catch myself saying "oh yea, whatever" or "I bet you do" in my head when Hubbs says he loves me, but I have to stop myself and remember that he actually does, even if sometimes he sucks at showing it.
Hubbs and I are lucky and unlucky in that we are each others first loves. It's cool that we can say that, but it also sucks because for the most part, we have no idea what that means. With the sex part, Hubbs lucked out. He was a virgin when we met and I... um... well... was not. He's still timid about asking for things he wants, and claims he's not "creative". I pretty much just say, "well, you've seen porn, so go ahead and try something and if I hate it I'll let you know." lol.
I think one of the major problems with marriages, relationships, whatever you will, is a lack of communication. Too many people are afraid to ask for what they want or need, or don't even know what they want. Your partner isn't psychic, how are they going to know if you don't tell them?
For all of you still wondering, yes, AF still hasn't shown up, which I find amusing. I'm on BC at the moment and hope that evens things out. It'll be so weird to actually have a 28-day cycle like normal people instead of 90+ days. Delving into the world of the normals! lol.
We're almost finished with the "bad" food that we have, which means probably starting the week of the 11th, the whole life style overhaul will happen. I borrowed a "yoga for fatties" dvd from the library, so it's going to be my goal to do that 3 days a week the first week, and then up it to 5 the next week, and the final week every day. I figure that plus the eating healthy thing should help.
It's daunting knowing that we have this HUGE journey ahead of us. Hubbs has decided to join in on the food revolution and will be doing his best to motivate me. It's nice that we're going to be doing it together though.
Next week we FINALLY have our adoption orientation with the agency we've chosen. I am nervous and excited, and a whole jumble of other things I can't even express. I'm worried we won't get chosen because our income the last few years has been kind of low... but hopefully I get this new job and that will no longer be a factor. It's not like they have a minimum income requirement or anything... it's just the one area in which we're kind of lacking. Oh well, we'll just hope for the best.
I'm excited to start a new month of NaBloPoMo with all of you and I hope you stick around for our life adventures.